Monday, February 23, 2009

Life as a Twig


I took a pretty little walk, to do some gardening you know? The grass was green and fresh, I could smell the rain as it hit the scorching black pitch. I got high.

The scenery made me want to cry. Surrounded in greenery, huge lucious trees, a border of bamboo. I feel like...like I could describe anything! No lacking in words, the colours and much rare earth to drown in. The scent so real, so vivid, it's lustre undeniable, glossy shade of green!

I pick the longest twig I could find, sit here ready to devour it. I devour it's life, it's breath, it's colour, it's scent, it's beauty, it's uniqueness.

So much beauty, so much life in a lifeless twig.

I smell it. Smell it's nearness, it's aloneness, it's perfection. It reminds me of fresh salad. Cold, edible, fragile, wilting.

It reminds me of my solitude, my dependability on the living. It brings me face to face with death. Jaws snapping at my flesh, my face...absolute inevitable destruction and everlasting pain.

It reminds me of life. It all begins with the root, soft, wet, fresh, vulnerable. Through the middle, it turns to a delicious green....then a depressing brown..

It's fatness thins out and I encounter a break in the once fertile twig. Shall I break it here? End it's life shortly, swiftly..end all suffering and pain?

Live or DIE! Kill or BE KILLED! Do it or SUFFER! ....It seems these are our choices whether we like it or not.

We lengthen, thin out, wither and thankfull, finally we die....It seems this is life...

...and the precious sweet smelling twig that I hold in my hand!


Sunday, February 22, 2009

No where to go for Carnival

I've often wondered at my life..saying "my life sux" doesn't cut it anymore. I'm sitting here and waiting..watching ..thinking it's going to get better someday!..yea..someday!

I wonder if the average 25 year old feels this way.. as though..life is something you feel unprepared for..it's hazy and you seem to be going nowhere fast. You find yourself wishing you were somewhere else..you get irritated at where your at in life and can't wait to get somewhere...but have no idea where!

Well, that's me right now, I wonder if 15 months from now..i'll be where I want to be.. I don't think I will be content...
My art teacher, Mr.Morris once told me the painting I did showed that I feel jailed in..even though I knew it was for my benefit. Like a bird in a guilded cage... It's a lovely looking jail..but a jail nontheless..and is it really for my own benefit?

So I, like some people don't enjoy the crush and bother of Trini Carnival..sue me! But would you pass up the opportunity to go to Tobago for a week..all expenses paid! ...I wouldn't..but I did :(

Now I'm stuck it seems ..at home on Saturday, at home on Sunday, at home on Monday , at home on Tuesday..no wonder I'm blogging!>>shoot me somebody!!!

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